Ok… for some time I’ve been thinking about the whole concept of change. Don’t think for one minute that I’m talking about THE CHANGE that a woman goes through!
I’m not …but then again maybe I am! … You’ll see my conundrum.
For those of you that have been with me for some time, you may remember I seriously considered doing a blog with the heavenly title of – “Fabulous, Fifty and Failing Flying!”. I had all these grand visions of what I could do, how it would work, what stories I’d share and how it would make women feel.
I wanted to do it, but my fear of…what… took over me and I never put myself out there.
Maybe now I’m a little bit stronger…?
Maybe now I don’t care about what people think…. but then again?
Maybe now I’m a little bit more in alignment with who I am…..?
Maybe now I realise (as I tell my clients) if not now..when?
Maybe now I know I need to practice what I preach?
There is no doubt that the number 50 brings with it a sense of contemplation, consideration… resignation…exultation.
Fifty and fabulous…
At 50 ..
You have moved so far away from where you were.
You feel so much younger than the box you tick in the survey!
Yet you feel you’ve so much more to give, to do, to be.
This life, that you are, and I am, so blessed to have isn’t a dress rehearsal, we won’t be asked back for an encore or a second take. This is it.
Maybe now I realise that ‘Girl you’re fifty (+1..feel free to ignore) and this is it, you ain’t coming back to do it again’.. so my time, your time is now.
I admit I do have regrets that I’ve hung onto from my past – both personal and professional – (and no I’m not going to reveal any more… no matter how many wines you give me!) and I don’t want to do that again.
I could. Do it again. Continue to do the same old same old. But somewhere inside there is a feeling, call it gut instinct that is stronger than its ever been before. (I can’t stand starting a sentence with but … but that’s how I feel!)
It says just do it..what have you got to lose… put yourself out there, give it a go, do whatever you need to do…
All of sudden I’m here at +1, and even though I do rejoice in that fact and I know I’ve another fabulous thirty plus years to get out there, live, celebrate and have fun…(and for those of you that know me well, my mission is to be fit and fab at 100) ….
I also appreciate that if I have a wish, a want, a desire to do something, be someone.. then it’s time.. to do it and do it now!
So what am I saying?
Is this part of THE CHANGE or is it, as I believe, part of my journey? Corny as it may sound, have and I (and you?) arrived at a place where finally we’re comfortable in our own skin? It’s taken a bit longer than I expected but I accept that it’s come at the right time. Simple.
I am now..more than who I was, and more than who I am.
Be Healthy, Happy and Amazing!
Caroline x